Last night after the NHS induction ceremony, Rory and I wanted to go see a movie.  We get there, and it is pouring rain.  We run for it.  I was running with my heels and dress on, while he was running with his slacks & dress shirt.  We get to the box office, and realize that I Am Legend was sold out - everything else would be too late.

We wait, watching the pouring rain... others watching us and wondering why we're all dressed up, why we're soaked... but most importantly what made us laugh as much as we did.

Instead, we decide to go to Starbucks.  Because we are both freezing to death, we make sure to get something nice and hot to warm us both.  Gingerbread lattes:  reminds me of Christmas.

We sat at one of the tables (that has a checkers board built in) and we played.  I haven't played checkers in many years.. at first I forgot the basics. 

I laughed at the fact about how priceless the moment was.  I smiled because I was radiant with joy.

As people still wondered why we were dressed up, and soaked, and laughing, and playing checkers, and drinking warm lattes, and truly enjoying each other's presence...  I realized. 

This is a memory that I have for myself & no one can take away from me.

This is truly what life is made of.

Love,

Kimmy

Maybe all of the years and unforgettable moments you've had with a best friend will always come first in a person's heart.

"Time" will always mean more than anything else.

It comes to the point of who has known your past, has helped you survive to this point, and who will be there for you in the future.

The last part of that sentence seems to make me feel uneasy.

Believe me, out of all people... I wouldn't waste my time with someone that I knew wouldn't hold a good deal of importance to my life later on in time.

Forget trying to make a million different friends for your sake in the NOW.

Instead, take a few... learn from them.  Learn to love them.  & If you're lucky, you can also learn to TRUST them.

I used to trust everyone so simply, but it seems that from what has happened in the past... I know that not everyone can be trusted.  I know that not everyone is there for your best interest.

So, my point is... that maybe having a great friend for years and years allows you to have that trust that you absolutely need for that friendship to last.

To last, ideally -- forever.

I seem to have lost some trust for close friends in the past... but only the years and years i've been with them will allow me to slowly accumulate what I once had.  I think it may be one of those unspoken rules. 

Perhaps it's because those absolute best friends you've kept all. that. time. have become family to you no matter what happens.

Those are the type of people you don't want to lose in life.

And for the others... they have a lot of catching up to do.

How many friends can you say are truly like family to you?  Because let me tell you, that's just one of God's gifts. 

I have 2 friends like that.  Those I have known for around a decade now.  There's just something inside of me that feels like they'll be forever.  Together or apart.

I have 2 other best friends... I only hope that they can continue on to the path that I only wish they would follow.

It's funny.  I have a pyramid of friends...  because the last layer is considered my "good" friends, until I realize that at any moment one of them can turn on you.. just because they are too angry with themselves.  The other good friends, are actually good.  & I love them dearly.

I become wary.

But yet, I also become enlightened to know that I do have some support.

Thanks, Alex.

Perhaps it was a phase.

I think I snapped out of it.  For the couple days I was in.

I never forget anything.

Love,

Kimmy